I know we are in a bad situation money wise and I just keep asking my mom for stuff! Deep down inside I don’t want to because she can’t pay for it but I can’t keep from wanting it and wanting to do anything I can to get it! I’m so fucked God I really hate myself for that! I wanna cry because I’m acting like such a selfish brat! I need to stop! If I don’t I swear I don’t know what will happen to me!